Sorry.
This happens every time to everyone. I don’t see why I even try and become friends with people because in the end they only get pushed away. I always do it without knowing so. I push away people that I would like to keep in my life, and that upsets me. I don’t mean to do it, and I don’t even want to do it. I’m sorry if you’ve felt like I haven’t been making a effort with our friendship. I’m such a sad excuse for a friend.